Things have been changing way too much for me these days. in both good and bad ways. just to let those of you who do actually read this....this post is going to be both long and very confusing. well anyways, change....why does it have to happen? this summer i didnt go anywhere or do anything so i actually had time to really think about the way things are. in the long run i realized that of all things that changed, i changed the most. i look at problems differently and act different. my parents dont like the way i am now especially my mom, but i dont really seem to care. yes i know thats completely wrong but i like the way i am now. before i was quiet and never really said what was on my mind, but now i actually dont care about what anyone thinks of what i say. things in my house have changed, i used to spend all my time talking to my mom and now i spend it either with my brother, listening to music in my room, playing soccer, or writing in my journal. i wish that aspect of my life would get back to normal. for some reason i dont think it will. soccer and music have become the most important things in my life and i share both with the best big brother that anyone could ever ask for.
Quite a while ago i wrote a post talking about how my friend's dad died and how we went for a run together and talked about learning from people. i read this post about 5 minutes ago and it seems now that i would have enjoyed talking to his dad, he seems like a cool dude. i think i learned alot from my mom ignoring me, my brother being there for me, and my aunt/uncle/cousins being hypocrites. things that i will keep with me for the rest of my life.
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