You Would Never Believe

Today i realized something that i would have never known otherwise. I was talking to my mom and she was completly ignoring me. that hurt me badly because she never ignored anyone, and then my brother called and my mom picked up the phone and he called my cell phone because he wanted to talk to me. he said that he was coming home this afternoon and he needed some money. so i put out the money and he took it without my mom knowing. then she went through my money and asked where 40 dollars went. i told her about the phone call and everything because i didnt know she would get mad, after all he my brother and hes never done but help me when i needed it. she yelled ans screamed and me then she told me the thing i will never forget for the rest of my life:
"I never loved you for you took away half of our family, but i always trusted you and today even that was lost, i trust the people on the internet more than you"
i went to go for a run after hearing that, but i couldnt seem to run i just felt like crying. i just got back home at 6:40pm this happened at 2:13pm.

Live Today Like No Other

Today...well actually just now my running person gave me this really good "speech". See his dad just died and even though is parents are divorced and he lives with his mom and his step dad he said that he loved his dad more than anyone hes ever met. he spent all of his time with his dad whenever he could. he said that his dad used to tell him stories about how to live his life. not as in judgement but as in his life stories. he said that he learned more about his dad then, than hes every known. he said that if only hed known his dad better he might have visited his dad more often or gone to him for more things, life lessons maybe. we sat out by LSP(leesylvaina state park) for about an hour. after he told me everything we sat in silence and then i couldnt stand it... i laughed. yes i know it sounds so stupid but its the truth. and after a while of me laughing by myself he joined in. people biking loked at us as if we were strangers...well we kinda are bu not the point... when we got through our laughing he asked me why i laughed, at first i wasnt sure but then i really thought about it. i laughed not to make him feel good but to make myself feel good. i have lost so many people in my life that i never actually thought about all they had taught me. just recently i lost one of my closest friend to one of the evilest things in the world...revenge. she wanted to beome friends with my friend Brookie but she never got the chance to. while she was in the hospitol she wrote Brookie a letter. but until today i never realized that the letter was really to me. it was a thank you letter. it was a letter to keep Brookie and me together throught all of lifes ups and downs. she knew that i would never keep it to myself and she also know that one day im going to want to read it but if Brookie and i arnt friends anymore then i will never be able to read it. when i was laughing i was more of laughing to release all of my sadness and fill it with the thought that all of my friends and family that have died they died with reason, with pride and honnor for themself. in life thats all we need plus good friends. so thank you Chris for telling me about your dad and laughing along with me when on a day like today you should be the one crying.