i am an idiot

one day which would not be today i got so mad that i went on my email(hotmail) and i did something to it and it said that i could n longer go on it. so now i am totally screwed because i have no way of contacting my friends in italy or cousins in trinidad or anyone other than the people i see everyday. i totally hate myself right now and i feel terrible about it. now the only thing i have is this and noone looks at it any more. because no one has anytime to actually read this and write me back i wish someone did though. it would be nice.